Gotcha, sounds like BJJ is the thing for you - combatives without the head trauma. 

There’s a vast chasm between being prepared and capable to defend yourself & your loved ones when needed and recklessly committing to unnecessary violent confrontations. Marc advocated the former, not the latter.

I’ve cracked my head too many times while rolling on the mat to really be pumped to risk it again lol

And I think that is a reasonable thing to write out online, but is much harder to execute in practice when again it’s just much safer to exit the situation as quickly as possible rather than “defend”

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